Won £10 on my first scratch card :D

Lol. I tell you I need you as a friend, so you post about being worthless. Wow it’s nice to know you listened.

I dunno. I just feel like I have no one. I could have sat in my free today revising with everyone else, but I went and sat in f2 on my own instead. I dunno, I feel I won’t be invited if you have a house party. It’ll be the little group. Something happened. We grew apart. I know that happens, but I thought I’d feel a bit more important than I do now. I just feel so worthless, like I’m no good to anyone, like it wouldn’t matter if I wasn’t there. (that didn’t mean to sound suicidle) but yeah, I feel like Rhys is the only one who really gives a fuck about me. He tells me everyday that he loves me, and compliments me all the time. I dunno, I guess only a couple of friends will realise when I’m upset, but how do I tell them that I just feel like I have no one. Meh.

My family really get to me sometimes. I was talking to my cousin yesterday (he’s 30, got a degree in science and is very posh) and told him I had my film exam today, he was like ‘film, something I do for pleasure, and you’re doing it for education?’ and was basically saying its a nothing subject, which is what everyone says basically. It makes me feel like I’m the dumb one from the family and it genuinly makes me wanna cry.

Actually, i’m done. Done with trying to get you to see that i miss you. You’re obviously that much of a cunt that you don’t even care anymore. Enjoy your perfect life with your perfect boyfriend which is going to end in you two getting married and having kids and having a dog. Yeah good luck with that. I’m done. If you’re not gonna make an effort, then why the fuck should i? Well done for throwing away two years of friendship. Enjoy your life, knowing you’ll never have friends like us again.

Bye.

Dear slut, slag, bitch, whore, or in other words…Shann.

I know this is very late fore a birthday card but oh well.

We’ve been friends since August, and we’ve always been so so so close. We’ve been through so much together. So many tears and happy times!

You are like, the only person i can tell certain things to, embarrassing and bitchy things. Thank you for being there.

I love our phone calls, and i don’t know what i would do without you!

You mean so much to me, and i wish i could see you more than i do now, it sucks.

You are my lesbian, my slut, my advisor, and my best friend.

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!

Love, Katie :) xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

So strange how quickly things can change in less than a year. We don’t even talk anymore :’(

I argue with my mum cause i think what she makes me pay for rent is too much. I’m 16 for god sake, i shouldn’t even be paying rent. I’m only paying £20 less than my sister who earns more in a month than i do in a year. She’s even getting £50 a week child tax credit for me. So i asked if some of that could go to Rhys’s dad. And she was like, no its your choice to stay there lots blah blah. So i was like well can i lower my rent here then, and she was like no. 

‘UOGFOZDFKNFPAIDSHFIOLS STUPID WOMAN, STOP BEING SO FUCKING STINGEY.

I’m only giving her half my rent next month. Fuck her.